“all that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream”-edgar allan poe
“all that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream”-edgar allan poe
“all that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream”-edgar allan poe
“People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within.”-Ramona L. Anderson
Passion Pit-Sleepyhead
I guess it’s a little late to be recapping my photography skills of 09, but what the hell I’m crazy like that! The photo quality of my pictures greatly improved when I got a new Canon Powershot XS120 IS. Though I dream about owning a DSLR, this point and shoot has been treating me well in the meantime.
As always, click to enlarge…enjoy my lovelies 🙂
‘A Glimpse of Heaven’
Merritt, BC
‘The Student Life’ 
Cambridge, England
‘All That Remains’
Essex, England
‘Shakespeare’s Cliff’
Dover, England
‘Don’t Look Down’
Beer, England
‘Two Ships’
Beer, England
‘A Jane Austen Moment’
Beer, England
Beer, England
London, England
London, England
Vancouver Aquarium
Beer, England
‘The Houses on The Hill’
Beer, England
‘Big Ben’
London, England
‘Chelsea’
London, England
‘Peanut Butter and Jellyfish’
Vancouver Aquarium
‘Spotted’
Vancouver Aquarium
‘The Road Home’
Somewhere in Washington
Bowen Island, BC
English Bay
Merritt, BC
Merritt, BC
Cancun, Mexico
Somewhere in Washington
‘To Be Boys Again’
Bowen Island, BC
‘Ice Cream Sky’
English Bay
‘As The Sun Sets’
English Bay
‘Still and Silent’
Merritt, BC
‘Reflect’
Merritt, BC
And the winner of my favorite photo of 2009 goes to…
‘Crash and Bird’
Cancun, MexicoThe last few days have been a whirlwind of emotions. When I woke up Friday morning I had a very weird feeling about the day for unexplainable reasons. It seemed from the exterior to be any other Friday night. After Adam sent me flowers I insisted I take him out to The Keg for dinner to celebrate his promotion. I also knew that The Keg was one of the only places that would fit into the cleanse diet (think vegetarian in a steakhouse!) So I raced to the gym and then raced home to get ready. I had seen Jess had called but didn’t have time to call her back because I had to pick Adam up right away. We then go to the restaurant where we make some comment about all the people on their phones and how silly our generation is bla bla bla. So when I felt my phone go off I didn’t check who was calling, not wanting to appear to be a hypocrite.
As soon as we got back to Adam’s I checked the bbm from Jessica: “I tried to call you, I’m engaged!” I literally froze and just showed the phone to Adam who freaked out and told me to call her. Of course the entire proposal was adorable and she was at The Italian Kitchen with her whole family celebrating. We scheduled an emergency meet up the next afternoon at Starbucks…
I am bursting with happiness for them, my face is practically glowing! I have never seen Jessica this happy (which is a huge statement, trust me…she’s always bubbly!) It just feels so weird….my best friend is engaged. I feel so grown up in a completely terrifying way! Anyways I’ll have to start saving money for their destination wedding which is guaranteed to be amazing because Jessica’s mom is a wedding planner.
Congratulations again “Jelly”…love you long time!
There have been some changes taking place lately and I feel it in my bones that there are more on the horizon. I dislike these adult decisions that need to be made as we get older. Remember when your biggest problem was that your best friend wasn’t allowed to come out and play? Actually that’s pretty relevant because some of my best friends have been too busy to “come out and play” haha. Where was I? Oh yeah, change. I have this problem with over analyzing (filed under ‘bitches are irrational’) and looking at the big picture rather than the right now aka what is relevant. So lately I keep stressing about what the hell I’ll be doing in the next few years.
My biggest dilemma is school vs. work. If I continue studying at this rate, I will have a diploma by the time I’m 30! So the simple solution is to stop working and take on 5 courses each semester. But is anyone else completely terrified of quitting their job? Isn’t it sort of like a bad relationship, you stay in it because it’s comfortable but you know it’s not “the one”? My job is my bad relationship and school seems like a great excuse to break up. I would need a quick rebound though, in a high-paying job with few hours. Stripping? Just kidding…
Then amongst the school vs. work debate comes the money issues because I need it (money that is) and with so many bills to pay, I wouldn’t be comfortable without a job. Not to mention my lifestyle costs a fortune in itself. Why couldn’t I have just been a loner? Or born into a family fortune?
Sometimes I wish the solution would just slap me in the face and everything would fall into place and I could live happily ever after. Damn you Disney for putting all these unrealistic ideas in our heads! Maybe Danielle is right and 2009 is just shit.
In other news, Adam is almost completely moved in after a hectic weekend. The place looks great already and there isn’t even much we have to do or buy to make it cozy. It already feel like his home and that is a major relief! He seems really happy with it too, which obviously makes me smile. I loved helping him set up and organize. It’s always more fun when it’s not your own place! Brandi also moved this weekend and I’m so pumped to see her new place (see…more change!) I made her promise we’d do a photo shoot because her new neighbourhood is gorgeous and she has a rebel that we need to put to good use!
Don’t get my wrong, with bad or confusing change comes positive change. I guess I just feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I just hope I have the strength to make a decision soon, and I hope it’s the “right” one!!!!
Alexi Murdoch-Orange Sky
the line it is drawn
the curse it is cast
the slow one now
will later be fast
as the present now
will later be past
the order is rapidly fadin’
and the first one now
will later be last
for the times they are a-changin’
I think it’s scary to be in love. It puts us in a state of vulnerability that is both exciting and uncomfortable. It’s so rare to find someone who you are genuinely compatible with, someone who fits your list of “requirements” (not that any of us girls would EVER produce such a list!…)
It is also not always easy to be in a relationship. Stressful situations are thrown at you from all angles at any given time. When one of you is stressed, the other person is stressed. It’s an entire person’s stress as well as your own. And ironically, it feels so much better to have someone to share the stress with.
I have caught the giggles lately. Every single time Adam and I hang out I laugh uncontrollably like an immature little girl. I haven’t quite figured out what it means, since I normally get the giggles at completely inappropriate times. The only conclusion I can come up with though is that I’m happy. That I am genuinely content and at peace.
A wise woman once told me that when you find someone great, you don’t feel as though you are waiting. She said that with all her ex boyfriends she was always waiting. Waiting for them to be more thoughtful, waiting for them to change, waiting for something…even if she didn’t quite know what it was she was waiting for. She said when you find someone great, you feel at ease because you are no longer waiting. I completely identified with her when I thought back to all my past relationships. Waiting for things to improve, waiting for things that never seemed to come. Waiting seems like such a waste of time…and it is.
When I woke up this morning Adam said he had a surprise for me…something to give me. I knew he wasn’t kidding around because he gets awkward and nervous when he has to tell me important things. I covered my eyes and he pulls a black expensive looking bag with pink ribbon handles out of his closet. The pink ribbon read “Diane’s”.
For no apparent reason, Adam bought me a beautiful set from Diane’s Lingerie. He said that he wanted to do something nice for me because I seemed unhappy with work lately and he wanted me to feel good.
Are you kidding me? Can someone pinch me?
He had contacted 3 of my friends asking where the best place to get lingerie was. He was sneaky and looked at one of my bra tags to see what size I am. Unfortunately, he happened to look at my “granny bra” which is a larger size than I normally wear. It is so close to my actual size though, he did such a great job! He even got a style that I had mentioned once…he actually listened to my ramblings and remembered what I wanted. I don’t even know if I remember saying it!
I feel as though I have won the lottery, I am so lucky. And I have a feeling if you asked him, he’d say the same thing. I waited forever for ex boyfriends to get the hint and do nice things. And I think that the most frustrating part was that most of them knew what would make me feel special, but they just didn’t ever want to go through the effort of doing any of it. And all at once today it hit me that I am with someone who wants to make me happy! He got the memo…he figured it out and he wants to put the effort in.
I am not telling this story to brag, but I also don’t apologize for writing how I am feeling in this moment. I wear my heart on my sleeve, even if it gets me in trouble most of the time. Maybe it is possible to find someone great and to be happy for a long time…and maybe not. I am certainly no expert, though I must admit that today I am feeling very optimistic 🙂
Coldplay-Green Eyes
love florence…
photos from lastfm I first heard Florence & The Machine in a clothing store acutally. She did a cover of ‘Hospital Beds’ which was originally done by Cold War Kids. I loved her voice and went home to find it on iTunes and have been listening to it on repeat ever since. The song is only 2.5 minutes long though and I was on the hunt for more! I discovered that she came out with her first cd a few weeks ago with 22 songs. Lung cost me $11.99 on iTunes, which I was hesitant about but I had gift certificates so I figured what the hell, I’ll just give it a try….ohhhh my God!! This cd is so fantastic, I’ve been telling everyone I know! Her voice is so amazing and she’s super catchy but a little bit dark as well. I’d compare the sound to the newest Yeah Yeah Yeah’s cd, but her slower songs remind me of Imogen Heap.
If you’re hesitant to purchase the entire cd, I’d start off with Dog Days, Kiss With A Fist, and Hurricane Drunk. They are my personal faves so far!
If you do give her a try, let me know what you think xoxo